Freedom And Fear

In less than a month I will be done with my third year of Higher Education.
In less than two months I will be in the Mountains of New Mexico.
And today. I am content.

It is so interesting to me how the changing of seasons contribute drastically to mood and outlook. The way souls are overjoyed when the sun is shining, or the way the mood changes to inquisitive on a dark and cloudy day.

As spring is trying to nudge its way into our lives, we find that it could not come at a better time. It has been a long winter, and I think that a majority of persons are ready to have the freshness of spring invigorate their souls.
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All of us claim to be free. We all claim that we have freedom, and we can exercise it anyway we desire. However, I am finding out that that claim is somewhat untrue. There have been numerous times in which a certain underlying and driving force constructs us not to exercise our freedom. And I'm not talking about a God like figure. I think what I am talking about is culture, and how unseemly in has absolute control of our lives without our recognition.

When we have desires just to go. Desires to go somewhere by our lonesome, or with a companion, we find all sorts of reasons to pile up, for us not to go. How come I find myself when walking to Spanish, and really not desiring to go, still going? I am free enough too chose the opposite. I am free if I wish to not go to class or work or other obligations and to do what I desire, as in take a drive. Or play music. What is it that restricts certain freedoms.

I guess that my answer is fear.

Fear from a failing grade, which leads to failure to graduate, which leads to failure to find a successful job, which leads to failure of cultivating a great life---all of this according to society of course. Our freedom is shadowed by fear.

Which leads me back to my original point.

How can we truly exercise our freedom that we claim we have?

The best answer that I can muster up is I just don't know, which is probably the answer of many, which inevitably appears to let fear win.
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