No End In Sight

There is really no good reason for me to be writing except for the fact that my body feels so tense and frustrated that I needed a resource to calm myself down. And this is the one that is the most feasible.

I will not go into reasons for why I feel tense. I will just write a minute and then calm down. At least that is what I am counting on.

It is snowing today. In Kansas City. On April 12, 2008. Can we just soak that in please. On April 12th snow is falling from the sky. I heard something this past week that when all of the seasons bleed into one, then the Apocalypse is near. Lets hope that whoever made that claim is not correct. I am not looking forward to the ending right now. After I have lived a full and content life, then I will be ready to sleep indefinitely.

Something got me thinking yesterday. I was watching a very powerful movie called Babel. I recommend it, however I caution you that it will leave you in silence and contempt..so do not watch it if you are in a peppy and overly happy mood. Anyway.

In short the movie has three different stories going on, in which you find that they are all interconnected. The three stories are cross cultural and depict different ways of life in different societies and cultures. On is a middle eastern goat herder. The other is a Japanese girl who is searching for a lover. And the third is a Hispanic child care provider for a family that is traveling.

And my main point is this: We, as a human, global society at large, occupy our lives by filling them up with things that are momentary and occupy our boredom. Isn't that why we have jobs--to occupy boredom. We make the money we receive from our jobs to pay for things that we think will provide happiness and relief from boredom.

We are trapped. Us living in this age are trapped by previous ways of societies and cultures past. We are still living the system that was set up ages ago to alleviate our boredom. We are encouraged by society to have jobs in order to provide money (which is a system and idea constructed by man) and we are told that the more money we have, the more happy we will be.

My guess is that man in his most primitive state--whenever man came to rule over the land did not want to climb the latter of corporate success. My guess is that he did not belittle the ones who were weaker. My guess is that all the other primates worked together in a way that would benefit the whole of the group. They did not care about personal gain or personal hierarchy. They were surviving. They needed each other to survive. And now I think the mentality is we think we just need ourselves to survive.

If we try to break away from this trap we find alone, discredited, and abandoned by a majority of society. We find ourselves to be the outcasts.

Why did things become this way? We accept it all so blindly. We accept it without question. We accept it without caring. In a way, I wish I didn't care so I could just live as everyone else does, but something does not sit well with my soul if I were to do that.

I can write about it on this blog, but how can I change my lifestyle to reflect what I am saying? How can I be more than just another writer raising questions about how things came to be? There's not an answer.

Maybe just the awareness of knowing and acknowledging that we are trapped is a start.
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